HELLO TOMORROW
How nice to have ‘ME’ back after a long break. This is about
12 months from last post, that’s quite bad and unhealthy for a blog.
Don’t worry am back now am not going anywhere…at least not in
a while.
Ok… hi, I’m David Galaxy and am your friend.
Really, something’s been bothering me for a while now
actually, that’s what brought me back. I kinda just want to pour out my
feelings so please in case you don’t find this as motivating and inspiring as it
should be pardon me am actually doing this for ME at the moment.
A lot has happened over the past lengthy months and trust me
I want to tell you all about it, I will somewhat but not right now. I’ve had
series of fun, change of location many miles away from home am actually writing
this 10-11hours drive away from home. Never gone this far in my life before,
and to crown it all am in the busiest city in the country and partly all by
myself…wait…why did I use the word partly?...
Let’s not talk about that now…
The human being was designed in a way that he is suppose to
take care of himself and protect himself from both external harm just with the
same intensity, protect himself from internal harm…yes you can hurt yourself
but its the duty of you to protect you from you. Let me prove it, have you
noticed, you can as well try it out now; have you noticed that even if you want
to by yourself stick your finger into your eye no matter how much you want to
use your will against your eye it’s going to blink when you come close enough.
The same thing applies when it comes to some other serious hurts, you might not
even know you are trying to hurt yourself but YOU will protect YOU from YOU in
so many ways.
Ok, let’s complicate things abit…notice there are 3
personalities in the context. YOU, YOU and YOU… I can’t define or differentiate
between them, I might try but I don’t want to but there is a problem with these
guys and I have discovered something contradicting; the ‘protective’ you is
normally the most selfish you and so the most irresponsible of the 3 and often
times the you that is seemingly the ‘bully’
is actually the good guy with good intentions trying to look out for the
weak you, and the most amazing or rather mysterious point is that the supposed
weak YOU is actually the strongest of them three and the real YOU and funny
enough, he decides who takes care of him either the protective and easy going
you or the good guy but kinda blunt and so therefore seeming hard and uneasy,
not so friendly or pleasure driven but quite compassionate and knows it all YOU…
In a more elaborative way, the You1 is the guy
that will tell you “it’s ok going to the party but promise me you wont take alcohol,
you know you shouldn’t do that and don’t dance with the girls just socialize,
get coca cola for yourself, enjoy the music but don’t listen to the lyrics just
the beat and of course take pictures, it is pretty better than sticking your
head in the pillow all day long worried about missing the exam because of
tuition fee, worrying is not going to get you the money plus it is not good for
your health just let go man remember mum said good things happen to you when
you are happy rather than sad c’mon go out there and get on a lighter mood…”
doesn’t sound bad does it?...YOU2, talks rather in few words “you
know you are definitely going to do something wrong if you go there…am not
saying you shouldn’t get on a lighter mood am saying this is not the best
way”…and that’s it, he doesn’t tell you what to do just tells you what not to
do, how frustrating…[I think am being emotional right now and am beginning to
deviate from what we’re supposed to be discussing…I’ll put a pause here and
re-trace back but remind me, lets finish this particular discussion]
Haven
gotten in a bit the picture I’m trying to paint, one of the most effective ways
to escape depression [for someone like me] is to dream about TOMORROW. I can’t
explain how I got such ability or when it started but the moment I’m going
through hard time like not haven eaten for the last 24hours or optionlessly
trekking for 2hrs on empty stomach to work, I just switch to the wonder land.
I’m so good at fantasizing about the future and I draw so much strength and
solace from it…I can create fascinating images of where I will be in the
nearest future, kinda car I’d buy in couple months ahead, or as food fan I
paint the most unimaginable dishes ever. How I’m going to set my apartment and
invite friends over for party and most daunting of all, drives me crazy is
bringing mum to spend 2weeks at my place with a list of how-to-spoil-mum things
to do for her, shopping, cinema etc…
Hello tomorrow…
You were supposed to be my friend, I love you so much, we literally
spend every minute together, and we enjoy each other’s company a lot…
You will often give me hope, encourage me and teach me things. Get
me back on my feet each time I fall, pat my back and show me how I’m going to
turn my experiences into a story and use ‘em to motivate others…
What happened?
You’ve suddenly grown wild, you betrayed me, you mislead me, and you
turned into what I’m not. Made me do things I wasn’t supposed to do. You put
this strange fire inside my bones and make me feel like am running outta time,
what’s that?
Well, as much as I love you and am never gong to let you go but at
the same time I am not going to let you strangle me, you aint gon suffocate me
no more…am not behind time, God got me and am right on schedule. I'm not going
to do the casino anymore or all those stupid stuff to get money quick and buy a
Hyundai Santafe.
I will admire you dear tomorrow but I will live today.
Dear today…
Forgive me for not paying much attention to you. From now on we’re
best friends, I will love you just as much as I love tomorrow and I’m not going
to let tomorrow make me make mistakes that will hurt you. You are all I have
now and am going to treat you as such and even when I become tomorrow I won’t
forget you because you showed me the way…
I love you tomorrow…I love you too today!
Phew... I think am feeling a lot better now J
I don’t know what to say I hope you understand at least some
few lines…sorry I can’t really explain but that’s exactly how I’ve been feeling
couple days now. My fantasies of tomorrow drove me crazy and I almost lost my
mind, dragged into things naturally I’ll never do…how horrible. What’s supposed
to be a remedy or a therapy turned a virus and almost killed me.
Here’s my advice…BALANCE.
I am David Galaxy, and am your friend.
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